Or more like people from People are weird week.

First it was Darvin retarded ass! And now Stupid and Freak….

Stupid texted me: “I saw Twan! You can see his smile from a mile away. From Stupid” I read this and was like… Wow! It’s been a while since we last spoke, and you send me a text like we just went clubbing last night?? I deleted it. I could’ve responded asking where did she see him, but that just would’ve lead to text-messaging-conversation that would’ve included a lie as to why she fell off the face of the earth. Which would’ve lead to us communicating again. Then I would want to get my godson and then she would use my love for him, to use me for something else. So I said fuck it! Neither one of them are a part of my life anymore outside of prayer and that’s how SHE chose to make it… no need to entertain her. GTL said I should’ve responded, “Who is this?” LOL! I was like maybe, but it would’ve still lead to the lines of communication being open and that’s not what I want so….

Freak called. We held a lengthy conversation about what’s been going on in our lives and what the purpose of her original intent of getting in contact with me was. She said that it was never a problem with me, she had issues with Stupid. And since Stupid and I were close, she just chose to stay away. Her baby-father informed her that her life was always drama-free when Stupid wasn’t around. I laughed and was like, why couldn’t he tell me the same damn thing!!! My gut instinct was saying… leave the past in the past, just know that we can now be cordial when we see each other. But sometimes we never listen to our gut instinct – I really hope it doesn’t bite me in the ass. I told Freak that we should go to the bar sometime and really catch up. She was like cool. The very next day (last night) she invited me to a get-together at her man’s house in DC. I was a little skeptical at first but then was like, fuck it b/c GTL’s homeboys were in DC and if something popped off, then I know they’d come through for me. Plus I’m very good at paying attention to where I’m going when I’m not driving, just in case I need to make a call for someone to come get me. (you just never know!!)

The evening was ok. I could've/should've stayed home and finished my HW as I set out to do for the weekend. We didn’t stay long. Another one of her home-girls went with us, and just listening to their conversation proved to me that Freak and I can be cool, but we’ll NEVER be close again. She’s in a different stage in her life… a stage that I’ve already been through. She still parties to meet people. I party for the fun of it. Although she has someone in her life that she WANTS to be her man, she still talks to and visits other dudes. I’m ready to settle down (well I already have) and I don’t really want to associate with those still playing games. It’s one thing to date people to figure out who you want to make “the one” but when you have a great person in front of you – cause dude was hella cool – and you’re still seeing others, something’s wrong there. And the number one reason she and I could never be as close as we were – her daughter! I don’t have kids, and neither do any of my FRIENDS (except E down in Charlotte.) I don’t want to become cool with her again and get attached to her daughter again, and then we have a falling out again, and my feelings are hurt over a little kid again. So she’s no longer an enemy… but she’s definitely not a friend!

I wonder who from my past will call me next? That’s the problem when you have the same number for years… anybody can just decided to call and “see how you’ve been.” LOL