I just read this blog: http://www.livejournal.com/users/johnnieblu/28840.html (SabriNutz)

The beginning is just "Play Catch Up on My Life" but the last 2 or 3 paragraphs are soooo true! And I think that I need to live my life that way. I have people in my life that I'd like to consider my friends. I've known them forever and we have a lot of good memories together.. but recently, it's like the only time we talk is when I pick up the phone, and even then we don't always talk. We never see each other anymore. And it's like we have nothing in common.. we're growing in different directions.

So to all of my middle school and college friends.... I'll holla at ya, when I smile at ya! Because I'm not breaking my neck to keep a friendship going that you can't even meet me 1/2 way on.. I used to make an effort to come back to PA at least once a month or two.. who knows when the last time you came to MD - so I ceased my visits.. now I'm ceasing all forms of contact: visits, phone calls, emails, text messaging... I'm obviously not on your mind and nor shall you be on mine. Middle school buddies... we have grown far a part from each other.. we honestly have nothing in common but alcohol... and I rather drink with people I can talk to. I mean really.. what's the point in calling someone if you can't hold a conversation longer than 2 minutes with them and ya'll haven't spoken to each other in over 2 weeks. Of course James (my brother) and Justin are the exception to this... b/c ya'll may disappoint me sometimes, you never let me down... especially when I need you.

And then there are people that are close to me, yet not... and by that I mean we're always around each other (mainly b/c we have to be b/c of our current situation) but we are two totally different people. I have long term goals and you can't see into your future of next year. I want to be associated with people that want more for themselves... that are willing to do their part to reach these goals and not wait for a handout. We honestly have nothing in common... well maybe a few things.. but nothing to want to keep a "friendship" growing.

I used to be more careful about who I call my "friends" I need to get back on that. A friend is one that I have multiple things in common with; that I can talk to; that I can trust; that I can depend on to come thru for me in a time of need; that I can be honest with regardless of feelings; that is happy for me when I am happy and that feels my pain when I am sad/mad.

With that said.. if you thought you were a friend, but now you don't hear much from me.. know that you are no longer considered my friend, you are now my associate.

Friday night....

Kiya, Valerie and I went to BJ's (the cheapest place to get drinks!) Got nice and drunk and then went to Club Mate to party our asses off!! It was all of our first time there and we definitely plan on going again.

Saturday...

When I got up and recovered from Friday night.. I worked on my paper for school (not too much fun, but it had to be done.) Then James, Valerie, Brandon and I went to see Roll Bounce.. it was ok. It wasn't the greatest movie I ever saw, but it wasn't bad. Then James and I went to a fight party... that was just ok too. So I guess Saturday was just an ok day.

Sunday...

Was the big day. I got an invite from my friend's mom to go visit him in jail.. so I did.. it was cool. We tripped for the most part and then I came home. Worked on my paper some more. Now mind you.. I woke up at James house it was like 4PM and I have yet to receive my gift from him.. so I had a "little" attitude with him... He told me that he was taking me to dinner so make sure I was ready by 6PM. When he came to get me.. he said that he wouldn't make me wait any longer for my gift since I had an attitude with him.. so we went back to his house.. When we walked in.. SURPRISE!! It was Valerie, Brandon, my mom and aunt, Tarisa, Kiya, Ricky, Tia, Old School, Rhonda, and Kionne... My baby threw me a surprise birthday party... I got a lot of nice gifts... Thank you to all of my friends that came out... Valerie.. I'm mad that you didn't invite my brother & best friend.. but I'm not stressing it!

Weekend Overall...

Was great!!!

But because Sheneka and Tarisa missed partying with me on Friday.. I'm going to party again next Saturday at H2O....

Only because on that day, 23 years ago, I was born! Valerie and I are going to Club Mate tonight.. other plans for the weekend are unknown.. my husband likes to keep secrets from me.. but will update again on Monday.

I think so. Yesterday, my friend and I had a discussion about how she feels that we are growing apart. She tried to put this all on me saying that I "dumped" her for "James and his friends." I let her speak her peace and then I had to tell her about herself. She and I used to talk everyday on my ride home for work.. and then when I got home (since we live together) we would talk more. On the weekends, my mornings and nights were spent w/ James and during the day, I would chill with her (and Brandon.. he was so cute at the zoo Saturday)


Recently.... she doesn't call me on my way home.. when I walk in the door, she's on the phone w/ someone else, and on the weekends, she's no longer home for us to hang out together. I had to let her know that the reason we weren't as close anymore isn't all on me.. She doesn't care for one of my new found friends and she has made it very clear to me that if this particular person is around, don't invite her.. so I don't! It's not my fault that my friends like to do things and she can't grow up and let go of her issues with this person. Acting like a child "I don't like her, I don't want to be around her" will make her miss out on a lot of the things that I do and therefore we won't hang out as much. Now she also said that I spend ALL of my time w/ my boyfriend and that kind of bothered me b/c I'm the type of person that feels strongly about keeping all good friends around even when you have a boyfriend/girlfriend in your life. (Not saying that James and I will break up.. but...) your friends were there before your new love and if things don't work out b/w ya'll, your friends will still be there after ya'll break up... so don't toss them to the waste-side while things are great b/w you and your partner. Granted.. you may not SEE your friends as much b/c most of your time will be spent w/ your partner, but you should remain in constant contact w/ your friends. And I do.. but one thing about me is that if you cut off contact w/ me.. I'm not going to break my neck to keep in contact w/ you.. a friendship is a 2-way street.. and if I'm putting forth the effort, than so should you! But that comment kind of bothered me b/c I'm like if I spend so much time with James.. how can you be upset that I spend so much time with my new found friends?? That makes no sense!